Thursday, March 4, 2010

Head vs. Heart

I know God.

I know a lot of things.

Sometimes it is so hard to let what you KNOW sink to your HEART. So that you can feel what you are thinking. When you feel it, you live it. When you have it in your heart you act and live in a new way, it reverberates in you. It becomes who you are and what you stand for. It becomes what you want your life statement to be.

I know it's not always easy to feel what you WANT to live. Failure is as consistent as breathing. Will I ever do this right? Will I ever be good enough? I know how I WANT to be but I always fall short. Wayyyyy too short. You could say that I fall LONG. And hard. It can be so discouraging.

Why can't I feel what I'm thinking? Why isn't it in my heart?

Dear God,

I want to live with a deep burning passion for YOU and you alone. I want to love. I want to touch people and show them compassion. I want to use what you have so graciously blessed me with to show YOUR love to the rest of the world. I want to be your hands and feet. I want to be a servant, your servant.

But I'm stuck God, I'm stuck. I need you to help me. I'm sick of failing, failing you.


I need to pick up my broken pieces and give them to God. But before I can so humbly give God my pieces I need to pick them up. I have to make the first move. I have to choose to push on and not worry about failing. I have to get over my great fear of FAILURE. I can do ALL things thru God.... ALL THINGS. There is no failure there. There is no failure in God.

I trust he will lead me. I don't want my life to be a waste, a failed life. I will trust in Him. I will get it in my heart, on my heart. He will write it on my heart. And that will be my statement. I trust in Him at ALL times because with Him I can do all things.

1 comment:

  1. The honesty in this is very beautiful. I think that God's desire for us is to be real with Him, He knows the condition of our hearts anyway, but for us to break down the walls of pride and tell Him ourselves is why David was described as a man after God's Own Heart . One of my very favorite verses is Psalm 73:26

    My flesh and my heart may fail,
    but God is the strength of my heart
    and my portion forever.